I've been getting comments lately about how I'm bitter. You know what? I am freakin' bitter.
I mean, after I had no choice but to leave college back in 1997, I spent a good chunk of years trying desperately to put myself into a position to be able to go back to school. The world is a cold place. Oh, well. I finally accepted that it just wasn't going to happen and that my mother was dead and she wasn't coming back. I was no longer going to have a support system and I had to survive by myself in this cold world. This just wasn't going to afford me the opportunity that everyone else has. I became fine with this. I came to realize I had no choice. Now....
WHY DO JEWS INSIST ON PRESSURING PEOPLE TO DO THAT WHICH THEY ARE NOT IN THE POSITION TO DO?
Everyone rode me to go back to college and I shouldn't be here. I don't know how to solve for x in.... a = x/b and a = b /x and Y = .8Y + C + I + G and so on so forth. Granted, I have managed to find someone who would take TWO SECONDS to show me how to find a = bx and a couple other things.
Mostly ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL those Jews who insisted on repeatedly telling me what a smart girl I am and that I should have a PhD and so on and so forth... where are they? The response is that they are not here to "do my homework for me."
And I'm supposed to take calculus?!?!?!?!?!?!? Without having taken Pre-calc EVER and not knowing how to do algebra.
WHY couldn't you people have just kept your mouthes SHUT???? I was fine.
Are these people going to pay for a tutor for me to get through school? NO!!!!
Why does this have anything to do with Jews? People are people. Why do certain Jews insist on being bitter because they gave into temptation and pressure and put themselves into a certain situation?
ReplyDeletetake a deep breath.
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if you ever need to talk/write or need to bounce ideas off of someone, I'm not only a convert, I work in college admissions (graduate admissions specifically). i might be a good listener/reader.
you have a friend.
>"The world is a cold place."
ReplyDeleteYeah.... there are some people and things that can make it warmer..... but it does kind of suck.
>"WHY DO JEWS INSIST ON PRESSURING PEOPLE TO DO THAT WHICH THEY ARE NOT IN THE POSITION TO DO?....Mostly ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL those Jews who insisted on repeatedly telling me what a smart girl I am and that I should have a PhD and so on and so forth... where are they?"
Sure it's only Jews who are guilty of this?
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Seriously, I think there are a couple of reasons. I really think the first is simple admiration -- one sees someone whom one thinks is capable of unusual or awesome things.... and one sees that this person isn't on a track to make those things happen. That's tragic! So a major element is that these people see someone in Creation who might live without expressing everything she can.
I have a friend whom I discovered is like this with music. It drives me crazy that I haven't been able to get him to take up playing/performing regularly....even though he's almost masterful at it. But I'll keep trying until he does, b/c I'm convinced that it's where the true "him" lies....even though he won't acknowledge it yet. (I'm wondering if alcohol might help...)
But anyway when you sense a winner: don't you want them to go out and win?
There might be other reasons too.....especially in charedishe societies, most people can't/won't accomplish very much in the world of academia or scholarship, or build any variety of achievement that everybody in the world (not just their own community) can acknowledge as worthy and valuable.
But there's something....cool and alluring about getting as close to that kind of thing as one can. Hence the endless admiration for rabbonim/chareidim who achieved great feats of "secular knowledge" (always attained magically via induced quantum information flux from the 74th dimension, or some other ethereal mechanism not inclusive of studying.... but that's another story).
Anyway, maybe you're the one person who's capable enough to achieve those things. People sense it....and they want you to go for it (....and maybe tell them what it's like). So....answering your question, they encourage you to do things they're not in a position to do, because they're not in a position to do them; and you are!
>"And I'm supposed to take calculus?!?!?!?!?!?!? Without having taken Pre-calc EVER and not knowing how to do algebra."
:-8 Don't talk to me about calc. I've been trying to teach myself for years, out of this socratic or romantic notion that any truly educated and intelligent person in the modern era needs to know calculus.
Safe to say that most people who've never taken such classes have little idea of how challenging/serious they can be.
(Anyway....if you ever feel like bouncing calc problems off somebody sometime, feel free to try me. From a selfish perspective I can say that at this point it can only further my education!)
The Curmudgeonly Israeli Giyoret says:
ReplyDeleteMy mother, Ah"Sh, Senior Curmudgeon and Genius Seamstress often expressed annoyance at non-craftspeople who offered her "helpful" marketing advice.
"Oh, why don't you just go sell those things at the White House", she'd smirk in private.
Anyways, you brought back fond memories of How I Learned To Stop Worrying And Tell People To Blow Off. Menatally, anyway.