I was thinking last night in between my snores... When I posted or told the story, of how this woman didn't know me and wanted to set me up with some Persian guy. She barely knows him and knows me even less. The feedback I got was in the range of thinking I don't know... blah blah blah blah....
For example, one friend started telling me that I don't know how hard it is to set people up. Here's the clincher with that: I didn't ask this woman to set me up. That blogreader who offered to have me over under the premise of being nice when really he just wanted to fix my problems and pat himself on the back, he wanted to talk to me about this post. He figured I wasn't aware that this is what they do, they just throw people together. I'm fully aware of this.
What surprised me was that I was under the impression that foreign men were asking for American women and that these wannabe matchmakers were going out and trying to find for the men what they want without regard for the fact that these women may not want these men and therefore, no honey, this ain't a shidduch. I'm quite tired of women in the community telling me to be grateful for any piece of $#!+ disgusting gross man that is interested in me. Interesting enough, when age appropriate American men try to talk to me, they shoo them away.
Somehow, a vast number of individuals in the Jewish community seem to figure that in some way or another they must pressure me to cave and begin dating the nebach men I would not want. I feel this is why I'm not welcomed. They figure they will make it uncomfortable for me on Shabbos and they will get their way in ruining my life.
I've got news for you all. I've spent a vast amount of time by myself since I was old enough to not have a babysitter. You all are not going to break me. I'd rather be alone and happy than miserable but with someone. I'm not going to anyone for Shabbos anymore. I have no problem staying home and reading/sleeping for 25 hours. Please readers stop offering to have me over because I've just had it with invites that are only feigned to be friendly. I no longer want to give people a chance. You may well be kind and just looking to have someone over out of kindness. I've just had one too many bad experiences and I'd rather not have another. I just don't have the energy for this stuff.