Well, a kind person from Queens found out a while back and they just told me that they were told by a reliable source (which was also disclosed to me) that people in Queens have been running their mouth on me. Now, I spent two years in the process and I'm nearing my two year anniversary since my conversion and the phone calls just stopped this summer when someone point blank asked me if I was observant. Apparently, someone decided that I wasn't sincere and ran their mouth to people who ran their mouth and so on. The rabbis apparently joined in the listening and speaking of lashon hara.
It's interesting, here I am, with my life on my blog but, they'd rather listen to each other tell my business.
Yes, I've been turning more and more sour since my conversion. I imagine that Hashem weeps some big fat giant tears as they rip me apart. The Jewish people are supposed to be "priests unto the nations." To me, that means an example... a good example. I have really seen some horrible sides of people.
We hear that story over and over again about the guy who gossiped and then was instructed to open up a feather pillow into the wind. Then he is asked to go and collect the feathers. I know you've all heard or read this. This is a story about why you shouldn't speak lashon hara. The absolute important point of this is that you shouldn't speak ill of others. If for some reason, it turns out that you are wrong, you can never get that back because the person you told has told others and even if you go to them and say that it turns out you were wrong and the gossip wasn't true, first off, they've already told others, second of all, it will always be there in their mind.
You've all seen it here on this blog. Time after time, I have had these tribulations in the Jewish community. I'll be honest. They have really soured something that was once sweet that was inside me. For those of you who have contributed to it, I hope you're proud of yourselves. It's good thing Jews don't shave with razors because it should be awefully hard to shave without looking yourself in the mirror. Of course, somehow, I think the people in that category prance around and pat themselves on the pat. They probably thing they are good and innocent. Destroying another person, though, through your words is serious business. I'm quite sorry that no one seems to be able to impress that upon people.